I decided I ought to start a spiritual journal. I never did this in the past because I never thought that spiritual things really happened to me, but then I realized that that wasn’t true, the more I thought about it the more I recognized spiritual experiences in my daily life. So I’m going to start up a spiritual journal and see how this goes. I will also try to document as many of my previous experiences as I can remember them.

I realized about a week ago an outpouring of heaven’s blessings in my life. About a month ago I was sorting out my finances trying to get everything together. I’ve been using an online budget trying to keep track of my spending. As I was looking at it all, and paying my tithing (online! Now that they have that, it’s so convenient) I was feeling really grumbly when I thought about how much money in a year goes toward tithing, and then how much money when I have a better job will go toward it, and it was stressing me out because I just want to pay off my student loans. I also lamented because I was thinking, yea people always talk about money coming from these rando places when they pay their tithing but I figured that it wouldn’t happen for me because I’m not in a life experience where money could come from rando places (I don’t have opportunities to pick  up shifts or get a new job, ect). I also thought, well I wouldn’t be blessed in that way anyway because I’m not actually bad off – I’m just stressin about paying my loans. Ok. So that all happened, and I payed my tithing anyway because I wasn’t really THAT worried about it, plus paying tithing is more important than paying off student loans fast. Around that same time I also got an email recommending that I apply for a scholarship that I might be eligible for. I looked into it and found that I was indeed eligible for it and all I had to do was write an essay detailing what I’ve learned and what advice I could give to oncoming freshman. I quickly wrote the essay and had William edit it for me (he did a really good job helping me make it into something nice) not thinking a whole lot about it or expecting anything to come really. Then I found out I was granted the scholarship and was way excited but didn’t actually think too much more about it until one day a random thought came into my head (I wasn’t even thinking about money or tithing). I was thinking about how the total of my scholarship was a little bit more than the total amount of tithing I would be paying that year – and that basically all the money I spent came completely back. It blew me away when that thought came into my head and I knew immediately that it was a gift from the Lord. That he was blessing me. I didn’t even deserve it, but he showed me his ways. He is so merciful and kind. Don’t ever hesitate to trust in the Lord.