I know I've been blessed with many more spiritual experiences prior to this - but I've not been diligent in my record keeping. Luckily, today I was reminded to write the one that I had today down.
Today while at church, I was feeling very distraught with my calling. My calling is to invite people in our ward to attend institute. Two Sunday's ago I gave a talk on institute and knowledge (which was, surprisingly the only time I ever gave a talk where I wasn't devastatingly nervous) and so today I felt a bit of awkwardness in my calling today. I felt, that since everyone heard my talk and knows how I feel about institute, why should I then have to invite them personally as I usually do, and feel comfortable with. For some reason, I did not feel comfortable with this at all - I didn't want to be too aggressive a force for institute. I even decided that I wasn't going to invite anyone this semester, I would just remind everyone else in ward council that they need to help invite people. This feeling started in ward council and extended during sacrament - but after sacrament I felt the impulse to invite 2 people to institute - I thought I'd see how it went, see if I really shouldn't invite people this semester. As I invited those people, both of them agreed to sign up, and neither of them have signed up in years past, even with my invitation in previous years. So I felt that God directed me, he was kind of saying, hey, don't worry about a thing. I'll guide you to do the things and say the things I want you to do or say. I can't recall who said it, but someone once said, "who God calls, he qualifies" and I've liked it since. This was a witness to me that he set me apart to do the work of inviting people to institute and he won't let me down.
Another thing that happened was that, tonight as William and I started our serious study of the Book of Mormon, it was thrilling and exciting as we were delving in, but in the end I could tell that his attitude shifted, and that his faith seemed to be diminishing. I especially noticed this after I mentioned to him how I could see why a non-Mormon would think that Nephi's summary of The Book of Lehi actually could discredit it, rather than be proof of divine inspiration. He ended up defending that argument, and I realized something was wrong. We talked and talked about various topics, and by the end of it we both reached the same conclusion that we usually do. That most of this stuff doesn't actually matter, and that loving God and our neighbor, and being a disciple of Christ are what is truly important. At the end I could feel that William's faith was somewhat restored. He did, as he often does, tell me that I have a wisdom and am always saying the right things. God's helping me help William. I'm glad that he is!
love.love.lindsay
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